Missing

Have you ever had something for a long time, perhaps you even got tired of it after awhile or neglected it or shoved it aside, and then suddenly when it was gone you missed it more than you could have possibly known?

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It's especially hard knowing you can never go back, or knowing that even if you did go back you would do the same thing because it was bound to happen anyway. Sometimes, the most fun happens before the most hurt. Sometimes, though, you can't decide if it was worth it.